Battles of The Heart

R.A.J
3 min readDec 8, 2021
In the process of healing a broken heart, I created this art piece with the help of my two young children. Depending on how you look at it, and where you are in life, I call it “Shadows of a healing (or broken) heart”.

Crying on the stairs.

Yelling into despair.

She’s broken and no one cares.

He gently pets her hair, singing sweetly to her ears.

Why can’t she let go?

. . .

Why can’t I let go?

Losing our commitment.

Not Fair.

GAMES.

Throwing them in my face.

You ain’t no Gordon Ramsey. God awful taste. Can’t keep up with me anyways.

Now, wait.

I can’t hate.

He just might be my soulmate.

We don’t want this anyways.

Giving hope to long lost waves.

Keep wishing it wasn’t a mistake.

Believe me, it’s fate.

No mistake.

STOP.

I remember when.

The years go by.

You’re by my side.

Closing out this cycle never ends.

What THE FUCK gives!

Baby please.

I love you, and I can’t have you..

Have mercy on my soul.

Don’t be an asshole.

FUCK. HO’S.

Even you though.

They ain’t that cute though.

Fuck YOU. HO!

That phone gotta GO.

On my knees.

I’m begging PLEASE.

Baby please.

Remember me!

She cries inside.

LOVE ME.

HOLD ME.

Give to me. I beg you please.

Cozied up, dreaming FREE!

Broken dreams.

Flowing streams.

Screaming PLEASEEEE!

Trust me baby. Give me love.

My love. Free me, please.

The warmth of your chest keeps me warm at night.

Love from your tongue transforms my frown upside down.

Heart of gold , this is home.

Give me love.

Trust.

Our Soul.

Keep me whole.

I love you, baby.

Screaming for our heart.

Crying for my soul.

Reaching out for gold.

You broke me so.

Hold me now.

I need you more than ever.

Together.

Keep away the leather.

Feathers forever.

Together.

Forever & ever!

Venus cries into the heavens.

We’re up levelin’.

Develin’.

Keep me out of heaven.

He’s my crime to this fine divine.

Wrap me tight, draw me in.

Softer lips caress my hips.

Rippling goose bumps along my neck.

Hold me close. Hold me tight.

It’s ALRIGHT.

Say goodnight.

Cry to me babybay.

I hold you tight.

We are free.

You & me.

Cry with me.

Baby PLEASE!

Come with me.

I’m begging you please.

Be with me.

Baby, I’m bleeding with pain.

This is insane. Come say my name.

On my knees, I beg you please!

Why not . . . me . . . ?

Scratching at the surface, hear me please.

Don’t let go. I’m holding on.

Give me peace.

Serenity.

Listen to my tongue when we’re speaking within.

Listen to your words when you speak to me.

Set me free. Maybe we’re not meant to be.

FUCK. ME.

LEAVE.

BE FREE!

YOU HATE ME.

FUCK.

YOU!

You don’t deserve me in your dreams. You don’t deserve me in your sleep. The fuck you mean? We ain’t fancying. Get on with this mastery, You and I aren’t meant to be. Stay with me. Hold me please.

Sigh.

….

Free me, please. You’re killing me. This pain defeats me in my sleep, there is no peace. Give me serenity. Get away from me. Fuck you mean.

Boundaries.

PLEASE.

. . .

Mi Amor. Por favor.

I’m broken.

No more.

. . .

Mi amor…

Close the door.

Por Favor.

We are no more.

Thank you for taking the time to read my poem. It’s greatly appreciated, as I delve deeper within a painful past to create a brighter future for myself, and family.

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R.A.J

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